Hey guys, I might start doing these story themes as a series. Let me know what kind of stories you guys want to hear! I'll put them under my requests gallery and give my best stories. Here's one right now: my first attempt at love. I met this girl, let's call her Blue, in primary school. Didn't think much of her at first, but as time went on, I really started to interact with her often (most times to annoy her). Then, we both changed schools and went into separate neighborhoods. Not going to lie, I hadn't thought of her much, mostly because of the girls at the school that I was in at the time. DAMN. They were on some other level. But they never quite felt the same as Blue whenever I talked to them. Just a bunch of cold statues with pretty faces and "girly-girl-girl" personalities. When I moved up to secondary school (high school, for some of you), I bumped into Blue during one of my lessons. Apparently, I was lucky enough to be sat next to her. I thought, being the young boy I was, that this was fate. We hit it off pretty well, had so many fun conversations and jokes that I'm kinda tearing up just remembering all the fun times I had back then. I wanted to confess to her a few months later, and I did. I got rejected, mainly due to the fact that she wanted to focus on her studies more and her parents would kill her if she had a boyfriend before both of us turned 18. Me, being a hopeless romantic, tried to be all sappy and told her "It's okay. I'll be waiting for you when that time comes". That sent me into a whole rabbit hole of being possessive and not allowing her to hang out with specific boys and live her life, all because I was a selfish bitch. We've had our moments during secondary school, sure, but I was just so obsessed over her that my grades took a toll. I was unhealthily scrolling through her feed just to see if she posted a new selfie. I was... disgusting. I kept on wanting to be her man, her only one, but I suffered so much that I forgot to take care of myself. I fell into depression and had so many panic attacks because of all the stress getting to me, that I publicly threatened suicide (story for another day) I kept pushing everyone else away, but Blue always came to my rescue. Whether it was a phone call, a nice message or even a funny GIF, she would let me know that no matter what happens, she would always be there for me. But there was only so much she could handle. Right after graduation, Blue blocked me on Instagram and cut off all ties with me. Rightfully so, as I was acting like such a dick towards her. Toxic people out, am I right? But after that, I was left with this one question. "Without Blue, who am I as a person?" Everything up until that moment was dedicated to her. I had developed zero social skills. Even interacting with others was such an obstacle. Slowly, but surely, I pushed myself out of my comfort zone, became more sociable and developed boundaries for myself so what happened with Blue won't happen again. I'm glad to say that I'm way better now than who I was back then, and I wouldn't trade anything else for who I am today. But the key takeaway from all of this is to never put all your eggs, all your hopes and dreams, into one basket. When things go wrong, you'll only have yourself to blame as you try to piece your broken hopes and dreams back together. As a closing statement, yeah, I do miss her. I miss all the chats we had, all the kind words we shared, and how she had a funny little laugh when I goofed up. But sometimes, you can only love someone by letting them go. It may hurt, but it's for the best. Things will get better, okay? She may be gone, but I continue the fight. The fight to piece my heart back together again. The same heart, that I broke with my own actions.

~ FartedRamen

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